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We hugged at the end and went our separate ways. Our kids weren’t really letting us chat, so we exchanged emails to set up a coffee date, which involved catching up and a bit of reminiscing but was entirely aboveboard. I ran into him in a store about a year ago. I married my husband, had kids, and am still married. He followed me back to my house, confessed that he had always been in love with me, and we slept together. And, that was it. Then, one night, after we had graduated from college - when HSG was engaged and I had just started dating my husband - HSG and I were both out at a bar with high-school friends. Everything between me and HSG seemed to be over. HSG met his wife in college and got engaged shortly before college graduation. It was maddening at the time (and actually still is when I think about it).Īnyway, after high school, I didn’t really think about HSG all that much. He always seemed interested and then would pull back as soon as things started heating up between us. He wound up dating another girl most of junior year, and I moved on with another guy. Senior year we were both single and ended up in this cycle where we would be intimate (but no sex!), then HSG would ignore me, then we would start flirting with each other, and then we would hook up again. Then why have I been unable to stop thinking about a guy from high school for the last year? High school guy (HSG) and I have a somewhat tortured history, which is probably why he can so easily monopolize my thoughts. I truly have no “big ticket” complaints about my husband. Our sex life has been dull at times, but we have worked together to spice things up in the last year. He is a smart, funny, loving man and an engaged father. We both work in an intellectually stimulating and high-paying profession. My life and my marriage are really great. We met in graduate school and have, in essence, been together our entire adult lives. My husband and I have been happily married for 15 years, although we dated for about five years before getting married.